Lord, You know I’m hoping that my situation will switch
That You’ll show me You’re amazing by erasing it quick
But I’ve noticed that my hope was in You changing it quick
Instead of knowing You’re enough Lord I was chasing Your gifts
But then I opened up Your text and looked at David and them
Their situations was grim, but it ain’t change them within
They prayed You’d take it away but sought Your face in the end
And found comfort in Your justice and the grace You extend

For the past year (and a little more), I haven’t really posted on Tumblr. I realized that it’s been difficult for me to think about the things of life because every time I did, I became hurt, saddened, and depressed about what I concluded after each thinking session. I knew deep down inside that Jesus shines and rises above all those things, but I didn’t want to have to face heartache every single time I had something on my mind. So I stopped thinking, thus my shift from a thinker to more of a feeler.

Recently, I realized that I missed this a lot. It was unsatisfying and unfulfilling to have raw, unrefined thoughts mulling around my head and I started to yearn for deeper things again, even if it meant having to go through some pain. Even if this means overthinking (a symptom that comes with this thinker mindset, as I have learned from years past, but a symptom that hopefully happens less rather than more), hopefully this will help me reflect on my relationship with God and Kirstie moreso than I have in the past.

Had a couple of thoughts at Convergence this morning, but that’s something to blog about tomorrow.

triplee:

Yesterday I made a late night stop at the store to grab a few things and I had a very interesting conversation with the cashier. We made small talk as she scanned my items, and then she offered me a discount card but I told her my wife already had one. That’s when the conversation got fun. I know…

My man Trip with wise words on the topic of marriage.

Lord, I am so weak. There’s no chance that I can stand up against this by myself. Break me and show me that You are my only source of strength, of how desperately dependent upon You I need to be.

2 Cor 12:9-10

Thank You God for reminding me that an amazing retreat doesn’t necessarily mean tears streaming down my face and warm, tingly feelings.

ihurrahi: im playing these songs on vlc
ihurrahi: and one of the songs cant decide how long it is
ihurrahi: keeps swtiching between 1:13:45 and 1:13:46
ihurrahi: hahaha i just opened a bunch of files
ihurrahi: and now notepad++ is using 1gb of memory

Finding entertainment in the nerdiest of things. You and I are the same like that.

Our faith is chock-full of contradictions.

Jesus is the highest Lord of all lords, yet the humblest of all servants.
Our filthiness and sinfulness as human beings and at the same time contradicted by our acceptance into the pureness and holiness Kingdom of Heaven.
The rich are poor and the poor are rich.
How humility and brokenness will empower us and bring glory to Him.
How God accepts us perfectly for the way we are, yet He continues to grow us into the even-greater-than-present person of God He wants us to be.
How He loves us, how we hurt Him, and yet, how He still loves us.
How goodness and growth come out of the pain and suffering of trials.
How He trades beauty for our ashes. 

Our faith… It just doesn’t make sense. It’s so contradictory. It’s so beyond the understanding of human logic and comprehension.

But that’s exactly why I choose to worship Him.

When things got a little bit hard for Paul, did he choose to get up and get out of the Race?

When in this world, I am constantly reminded of the differences between the godly the and godless: what we find joy in, what we find hope in, how we define love, what defines us. In these times, I am reminded about how lucky I am to have Jesus and when I see these differences, it reminds me how my heart aches to desire for these people to know and love Jesus as well.

All things for the glory of God.

All this is for your benefit, so that the grace that is reaching more and more people may cause thanksgiving to overflow to the glory of God.

-2 Corinthians 4:15

I love finding comfort in the promises that God gives us in His Word.